Monday, April 7, 2014

Giving thanks for today...

Giving thanks for today. I stepped outside to rainy and cloudy skies but I felt nature teaming with life. I heard birds chirping, saw green grass growing, trees getting leaves and felt a warmer breeze. I thought about my family and how we are good. We may be missing a few key players but those of us who are here are well. Life is not always perfect but I can always find the good and praise it. Wishing you all a great Monday!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Grateful for the experience of Spiritual Awareness

This morning as I was praying, I said that I was grateful for this experience of spiritual awareness.  I am not sure that I have ever said that or felt it in such a major way but those words and that feeling stood out to me.

I think that awareness is super valuable to me these days for it is awareness that allows me to access power and tools that are there but that I may not see at first.  Awareness allows me to stay hopeful and optimistic because what I see is not the only thing that is there.  All I ever have to do in times of trouble is wait to be aware of the solution and it will present itself.

I have felt lost at times in my life.  These feelings of being lost were due to lack of awareness of the truth.  The truth is that we are powerful beyond measure and that there is no limit to what we can experience in life. The truth is that we are limitless beings who can conjure whatever they desire in their lives.  The truth is that we live according to divine laws and principles that when used, create a life that is full of adventure, good quality and purpose.  Awareness is KEY living these truths.

So if I had only to choose a few tools for living a happier life, Spiritual Awareness would be one of the first that I would choose.  Awareness is foundational to moving beyond limits and challenges as well as to experiencing all that one wants in her life.

Again, I give thanks for Spiritual Awareness as it keeps me in a state of experiencing the unfolding of limitlessness.

Tirra Olufemi
www.Goddess-Body-Mind-Spirit.com

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Being a mom....a thankless job

I have so many blogs everywhere that I decided to make this one a bit more personal in nature.  Maybe one day my kids will find it and glean wisdom from my experience in the here and now, thick of it all.

So today I am being reminded just how hard being a mom can be.  I seek to be a compassionate person to everyone, especially my children.  I was explaining to a friend earlier that when my children do something that we deem the utmost disrespect, we should not levy consequences on them that we wouldn't give everyone, including ourselves.

It is not necessarily easy for me to take the compassionate road. I really would like to scream and rage at my kids some days because I feel like they don't see the big picture of me giving my all to them.  They are with me so much that I am just this big bad presence to them.  I say YES and they automatically say NO.

I get worn out.  Right now, I am being reminded that homeschooling is not easy.  I don't quite see how kids learn in school.  It seems to be a miracle because to get these kids to learn in this small group setting of two at times.

For all of my unschool friends out there, unschooling is not an option for my family.  My husband is not down with that and so I have to do structured schooling with my kids.  I will say that I value unschooling AND structured schooling.  I think both are good for kids and my kids have both to a large extent.

Anyway, my point of this writing is that I wish I could get my kids to see NOW that I only do what I do because it is what we need to do right now.  I hope and pray that my kids see that though I was not perfect, what I have done for them is what I thought was best.  I hope that they thank me for insisting that we go ahead and learn time tables when they hated every second of it.  I started them late in learning most everything in order to wait for their brain to develop so they could learn it quickly.

I have changed curricula multiple times to hopefully find a way for them to learn that is enjoyable though they see it as unnecessary at times.

I was glad when my older son started to appreciate what we are learning.  He has resisted lots of what I thought was good for him.  I don't want my kids to be limited.  I don't want to miss windows of learning that are only open while they are young and so as a homeschooling mother, I have drug them through some learning opportunities just for the experience....I hope that they one day say, thank you, or at least that they appreciate the fact that i cared enough to try to do something good for their minds, their spirits.

Anyway, this is really a blog that is coming at a  moment when I want to scream but refuse to because it will only make things worse.  I just needed to  have a pity party that I could end at will.  I am done. I feel better.  Back to being a mom.  Giving thanks.